Love - Everywhere but Never Clear

It was always easy for you. You were free and so easy. Love is everywhere, it is always in the air. And you were so easy. Your mindset is that it is always there, no one can take it away. You have plans, thoughts, directions, strategies. And when you feel like this is the right time, you'll pull a table, lay my plans and start working it out. But suddenly, you were never easy. You've learned, love is everywhere but it was never clear where. So unclear that you thought it could be someplace far away, or it could be someplace nearby. And then, you end up wandering alone, almost eternally, where?.

Come a year or so, you have learned how to carry out your plans. Love always comes to your mind. Excited. Smoothly laying your plans...learning from others experience... But when your turn comes, you were so afraid to commit. So scared your plans will never be carried out the way you want it. You refuse. Confused, you turn your back. You've learned, love is everywhere but it was never clear where and when. So unclear that you thought it could happen at your most vulnerable moments, or when you've already settled and committed. And then, you end up regretting alone, almost eternally, when?
(Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game, but when your name was called, you found a place to hide - lifted from a song)

Come a year or so, you have learned when to carry out your plans. You take your time thinking about love. Not too excited but not too complacent. Come love..knocking on your door. You felt it, it is love. You pack your bags. You give yourself away. But when you open the door, it wasn't love after all. Confused, you close the door and unpack your bag-full of hope, love, life and luck. You've learned, love is everywhere but it was never clear where, when and with whom. So unclear that you thought it could be someone older, younger, someone you already know or someone you still need to know. And then, you end up looking and searching alone, almost eternally, who?

Yesterday, I was so easy. But yesterday was all just a memory. Now, I wasn't.

Late, Bonus, Salary Increase. Late

Not coming on time. Late. Monday, Tuesday and today. Late.

For the past weeks since the "rule" was implemented, I can say that at least my punctuality has improved. Before 9am, I am already here at the office. However, the penalty will start from 8.31am. Truth is, I am having a hard time and I am exerting efforts to comply. Any rewards for the effort? None.

Coming early can be a reward if you can start your work as soon or few minutes after you arrived. After or over a cup of coffee. Unfortunately, I am never a morning person. And that is the problem. No matter how early I woke up, I am always in slowmotion every morning. And with that, I have no other reason nor encouragement to comply, other than because it has become a rule.

Okay, people can change. People can become better. Is that an argument? Whatever. Of course people can change...over time. People can't change overnight.

Talking of encouragement. Where the hell is the salary increase and the bonus? For me, they are already sunk/spent/swiped. And the fact that it has been "swiped", I am already charged with interest. If ever, dear brothers and sisters, colleagues and co-employees, that our "beloved" is investing that in a high-yield deposit account or whatever securities, I hope that the interest earned is accrued to us. Haha. Loser.

If I am late, what do you call the salary increase and the bonus? PAST DUE AND IMPAIRED!!!!

Travel Misadventures Episode 3

Travel Misadventures will supersede (naks) IAS 1.. Haha, Elevator Misadventures pala. So this will be episode 3!

Scene 1
1.30pm. Sabado. Mainit ang ulo ko. Tpos mainit pa sa bahay nmin sa Manda (sosyal for Mandaluyong). Nagpack-up ako ng konting damit, sama na ang laptop at konting chichirya. Off I go to Cainta (walang sosyal na term, d pa kc xa city.. ung Manda ba? hmm..ewan). Sumakay ako ng bangka. Sira na ang porma ko. Keribels lang, wala pa nmang 30 seconds ang tawid e. Sumakay ako ng jeep papuntang MRT Guadalajara (Guadalupe). Mali ang binabaan ko at sa maling side ng MRT ako umakyat at p*cha siksikan sa masikip at mabahong elevator. I ignore it and climbed the stairs. Kung alam ko lang na aakyat ka pa ulit ng matarik ng hagdan para lumipat sa kabilang side (North Bound), sana tiniis ko na ang init at siksikan. Xmpre pag umakyat ka, bababa ka ulit. Okay fine, e d baba. Pagkatapos bumili ng 14 pesos na tiket hanggang Araneta-Cubao Station, pasok sa loob.

Scene 2
Bago ako makapasok,dumaan muna ako sa masusing pag iinspection ni kuyang Guardenia. Pati ata ung brief ko ininspect, kulang nlang ipaopen ung laptop ko. Hay ang tadhana, bakit pag minamalas ka e ung tipong sukdulan ng malas na parang pinagbagsakan ka ng langit at impyerno. Ang daming tao at ang tren, kung expandable lang e sing lapad n sana ng EDSA. Hmmm.. 3.30pm palang nman so keribels lang. Papasakayin ko muna ang mga katauhan. Pagkatapos ng 3 tren, lalong dumadami ang tao at lalong sumisikip ang tren. Utang na loob. Cge na nga sasakay na ako sa susunod na tren. Goodluck nlang. Buti nlang at di ko tinuloy ang pagbili ng donut sa Powerplant kundi piyaya na xa pagdating sa Cainta.

Scene 3
Di ko n klangang humakbang pagpasok sa tren. Nagulat na ako at nasa loob na ako ng tren. Ok fine. Kaya ko pa ang siksikan, at cguro nman me bababa na sa sunod na station. Boni Station. Wow. Napamura na ako (pero sarili ko lang). Kanina lang buong paa ko pa ung nakalapat sa sahig ng tren, ngaun nkatiptoe na ako. Hanep. Pag-abante ng tren, WOW, me humawak sa backpack ko. Sh*t! Nman naman! Daig ko pa ang gymnast. Tiptoed tpos nkaliyad. Konti nlang abot n ng kamay ko ang sahig. Amazing talaga. Sige, inisip ko nlang, nagbebending ako, stretching ba. Pagdating ng Araneta-Cubao Station, sh*t ganun pa rin ang pwesto ko. Maiistroke na ata ako. Hay.

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Eto ang moral lesson. Uunahin ko na. Pag minamalas ka, wag kang magstay sa lugar kung san ka minalas kasi for sure tuloy tuloy ang ligaya, disgrasya pala. HINDI BUMUKAS ANG PINTO NG TREN! Kung kelan ineexpect ko na makakagalaw na ako ng maayos. LIMANG MINUTO pa bago bumukas! Me lalaki sa pinto na buong byahe e hinahalikan nya ung pinto, NAGMUMURA NA SYA. Unlike me, pinapaalam nya sa buong mundo na nagmumura xa. Kuya, okay lang yan ako nga maiistroke na, poised pa rin. Four minutes xang nagmumura. At least ung isang minuto nakapagtimpi pa xa. Pasalamat nlang tayo. YES BUMUKAS NA RIN ANG PINTO. SUGOD MGA KATIPUNERO!!!! Katulad kanina, nagulat nlang ako at nasa Araneta Footbridge na ako kahit d humahakbang. Hahaha. Joke lang. Fairmart lang.

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Syempre malayo pa ang Cainta kaya mejo matagal pa ang misadventures ko. Dahil shocked pa ang katawan at isipan ko sa MRT, it-try ko pa bang magLRT papuntang Santolan Pasig??? HINDI NA!!! Bumili muna ako ng pasalubong sa pamangkin ko. Xmpre donut sa GoNuts. Hay ang panahon nga nman (biglang slowmo with matching wind blowing in my face). Ang dami n ng nagbago sa Araneta Cubao (pero ewwness parin ang Fairmart, class D?? hahaha, cge idowngrade pa natin Class DD-). Iba na kasi ang ayos ng Araneta Cubao since college ako (ui nito lang yun ha). Nag-improve ang terminal ng jeep papuntang RIZAL province, Marikina and the neighborhood towns). Pati ang ruta, nagbago din. Wow, iwas traffic! Haha, inikot ikot lang pala dahil ang bagsak din namin ay ang madugong traffic sa Aurora Blvd. Utang na loob!!! Tantanan nyo na ko... Sana tiniis ko nlang ang init ng katanghalian sa bahay sa Manda... Huhuhu.. Pagkatapos ng isang oras sa Aurora Blvd, matiwasay naman akong nakarating sa Cainta. Time of arrival 8pm. Ang saya ng byahe. Tara! Byahe tayo!!

Correction, hindi pala to Travel Misadventures kundi A Series of Unfortunate Events!