It's almost three years already. Back then I was full of hope, energy and determination, excited to grasp every opportunities waiting now that I passed the 2006 board examinations. I did well. That's good news, and even our neighborhood rejoices.
Three years. What good have I done so far? What have I accomplished? Well I'm an auditor for three years, what else can I say. Experience. Friendship. Work, tons and tons of them!
Whenever I look back at my old self, I would always say, nothing much changed, except that I aged, I got more wrinkles, I got a job and got more wrinkles. A lot of things that I still don't understand. There's a lot of things unacceptable. Things with so much burden. Dreams, they'll forever be dreams. Selfishness growing and growing.
Where am I heading really? I'm putting a lot of energy to things I don't understand. I don't know. Maybe I'm just walking to places with so many paths, a room full of doors, fields of a thousand acres, or a sidewalk filled with splendid distractions.
Sometimes I just can't trust with what my heart desires. I may be too afraid of the outcomes or too afraid to trust. I always want to play things safe, not to hurt and not to be hurt. I know life can't be happy at all times because there's a lot of feelings around the circle and what are they here for just for me to be happy. If I put some courage to trust, then what?
