Love - Everywhere but Never Clear

It was always easy for you. You were free and so easy. Love is everywhere, it is always in the air. And you were so easy. Your mindset is that it is always there, no one can take it away. You have plans, thoughts, directions, strategies. And when you feel like this is the right time, you'll pull a table, lay my plans and start working it out. But suddenly, you were never easy. You've learned, love is everywhere but it was never clear where. So unclear that you thought it could be someplace far away, or it could be someplace nearby. And then, you end up wandering alone, almost eternally, where?.

Come a year or so, you have learned how to carry out your plans. Love always comes to your mind. Excited. Smoothly laying your plans...learning from others experience... But when your turn comes, you were so afraid to commit. So scared your plans will never be carried out the way you want it. You refuse. Confused, you turn your back. You've learned, love is everywhere but it was never clear where and when. So unclear that you thought it could happen at your most vulnerable moments, or when you've already settled and committed. And then, you end up regretting alone, almost eternally, when?
(Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game, but when your name was called, you found a place to hide - lifted from a song)

Come a year or so, you have learned when to carry out your plans. You take your time thinking about love. Not too excited but not too complacent. Come love..knocking on your door. You felt it, it is love. You pack your bags. You give yourself away. But when you open the door, it wasn't love after all. Confused, you close the door and unpack your bag-full of hope, love, life and luck. You've learned, love is everywhere but it was never clear where, when and with whom. So unclear that you thought it could be someone older, younger, someone you already know or someone you still need to know. And then, you end up looking and searching alone, almost eternally, who?

Yesterday, I was so easy. But yesterday was all just a memory. Now, I wasn't.