It's been a long time. Thought I will never be able to write it down while I am stuck here - boxed and concealed, like my brain is not supposed to think of anything else except these numbers and the language, foreign but distinct - but alas, and I wonder for a while, grabbed a chair, plugged earphones with strangest songs and release the thoughts.
What happened while I am away? I'd say it's irrelevant and ultimately boring.
It rained cats and dogs this morning, you know. I wish I could just let myself soaked and come to office and then my managers would shove me away and then the rest of the day, I'll just sit around and do nothing. Anyway, that didn't happen though I was partially insane this morning. I just daydream while being forced to attend to a training where no one participates.
On my way home, at the subway, I thought about doing something I should have done before. Something I wanted in the past but was too unfortunate, thus, this wanting was forgotten and buried somewhere between the 2002s and 2003s. The wanting for the ebony and ivory just got resurrected. And now I am asking myself, how the hell will I be able to become a pianist at this age, with this learning curve deteriorating, hands that most of the time are tired from work. Then I suggest, how about 5 years from now, I can enroll myself at a conservatory school - Berkeley student program! Nah! Stupid suggestion. Stupid thoughts.
I am stucked in this profession which I half-heartedly chosen, and now, wholly chained.
There's always a way I guess. Someday soon, my dear ebony and ivory.
5 comments:
it's never too late to learn new things and to do the things that you really want. I want to learn how to play guitar, keyboard and drums!
I wanted to be a car racer or a ballerina. Neither have I pursued but it's a matter of contentment. I learned to drive, I joined a dance troupe. No regrets. But yes, it's never too late to do things you've always wanted. Give it a shot, that might bring out the best in you despite being chained in the profession that you're in. Mishu Ravindavin!
ui rav, i didnt know ng post ka pa rin dito.. kala ko wala na.. hehe! anyway, i have just reportmatted my site. planning to revive it eh.. hahaha! nice nice!
thanks guys. yeah, i'll git it a shot. batista girl, wrestler di pumasok sa isip mo?
I never thought of it when I was younger. Now I'm starting to reconsider. HAHA! :D
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